letting down someone is one of the consequences of making yourself happy. unfortunately, sometimes you have to make a decision that can cross someone. you can upset him, make angry or dissapoint, but in the end of the day, you are the one to pull triggers.
it is wrong, but for the first time in a while it feels good. Strangely, I feel satisfaction aknowledging the fact that I put myself first. Or maybe I finally realised that I am not perfect, and it makes me feel equal to everyone else. Now i get that, I do understand why this harmony inside is more important than someone's else feeling. And I can be incredibly sorry for letting someone close to me down, but at the same time my heart is full of joy as I heard myself and did what I felt right.
maybe that's the part of a life. in the end, no matter what you do, someone will be unhappy.